In March of 2007 I was attending my church’s Annual Ladies Retreat.
It was during the third session of the weekend that I really began to feel very uncomfortable. You know, that uncomfortable feeling that you get when God begins to speak to you, or maybe it might be better to say, when God begins to convict you that what you are doing is not quite right.
The uneasiness that I felt didn’t come from the message that our speaker was giving that weekend, it was more from a particular song that we were singing.
The music leader was leading our group to sing the song titled “Take My Life”. As I began to sing these words, “So take my heart; conform it. Take my mind; transform it. Take my will; conform it, to yours , to yours, oh Lord,” I heard these words softly spoken into my ear, “do you really mean this, my sweet child?”
I was so taken back by this that I just simply stopped singing and sat down in my seat.
Now ladies, if you are like me, most of the time when we attend a weekend conference or retreat we get on this spiritual high. A few days later we fall back into our daily routine and forget most of what the weekend was about — and what the Lord was speaking into our hearts.
But this weekend was different for me.
The next day as I came home, the words to that song kept ringing in my ears. The more that I allowed myself to think about my life, in comparison to the words in that song, I came to realize that I needed to make some changes in who I was.
Upon returning to work the following Monday, I remember a coworker asking me about the weekend. My reply to her was – “I will never be the same.”
Since that weekend I have been on a journey earnestly seeking for God to take my life and transform it to His will. Asking Him to conform my heart to His way.
There have been a lot of bumps in the road. I have steered off of His path many times. But He has ever so gently directed me back to where He is leading me on this journey.
In 2010, I felt His urging for me to start a blog. “Now hear this, ladies. He is speaking to a lady that could hardly type an email. I was a hunt-and- pecker on the keyboard. But He has promised that He would equip me to do what He is leading me to do.
So, with His help, I started blogging. I am hoping to encourage women and help them to see how much He loves them.
I strongly believe that we have to love ourselves before we can fully grasp His love for us. When we are able to love ourselves and accept His love, then we can be set free from all that entangles us. Therefore, enabling ourselves to become all that He intends us to be.
In October of 2010, following His leading, I started a small group in my church. The intention of this group was to encourage, fellowship and pray with women in our church. I wanted to encourage these ladies to open their hearts to God and help them to see that He has a wonderful plan for their lives. I prayed that they would allow themselves to hear Him when He whispers a dream into their heart. I wanted these ladies to know that God can set them free from the lies of the enemy. I wanted them to know that they can fly ……….. with God.
Over the past four years, with God’s help, I have accomplished things that I never thought possible. I have stepped out of my comfort zone and have become more bold in who I am and can be through Him. I have come to trust Him when He says that He will equip and strengthen those whom He calls. On a side note–we are all called. The question is – will we listen and respond?
Today, I am sharing this story with you because I feel that the Lord has opened the doors for me to continue on to the next step of this journey that I am on with Him. Lysa TerKeurst is giving away two scholarships to the She Speaks Conference. If I am fortunate enough to win one of these two scholarships, I feel that it would give me access to a lot of tools that would enhance my abilities to effectively minister to women through blogging and leading small-group Bible studies.
If attending the She Speaks Conference is something that God wants for me, at this time in my life, then I am trusting Him to provide. I strongly believe that everything is in His timing. He already knows who will be at this conference and what He intends to happen in the hearts of all of the women who will be attending.
Hope to see you there!!!