Monthly Archives: June 2010

Too Much Self

So many times in my quite time,  I ask the Lord to make me aware of His Presence in my life each day.  I ask  Him to allow me to be  be His hands  and His feet to those around me who are  suffering.  I want to encourage those that He allows me  to cross paths with. I want the people I encounter through out each  day to see His  love  in  me.

This past week God has really made me aware of  a couple of opportunities that He  put before me that I just breezed right past.  One was a sweet friend that I love very  much.  She called me at work  on  my lunch time.  She was sharing some things that she was going through in her week .  I listened and gave her my opinions on some things.  I ended the conversation with, ” I am so sorry that you are having a difficult week.  I will pray for you as soon as I hang up.” After hanging up the telephone it was like the Lord said,  “Why didn’t you pray for her over the phone?  She may have needed to hear some comforting words!”  My response to Him was, but Lord, “Why didn’t I think of that before I hung up the telephone?”



The other opportunity came through a family member.  This is a family member that I have been praying for to come to know  Christ. I was in a conversation with her and I felt that there was probably more going on with her than what she was saying.  I sensed the Holy Spirit prompting me to ask a few more questions.  But, I didn’t.  Later that day when I talked to my son, this family member came up in our conversation.  He said that he had talked to her and she was having a bad week. Once again I was asking, God , “Why didn’t I dig deeper?”




Father,  forgive me for being so consumed with myself that I miss opportunities to be Your hands and feet to those around me.  Through the power of the Holy Spirit help me to be more aware of the opportunities that you put before me each day. Help me to live each day in awareness of  Your Presence .  Help me to decrease, so that YOU may increase.  Amen.

He must increase , but I must decrease.  John 3:30





What Breaks HIS heart????

Today the Lord has called my attention away from myself and what may be going on in my own  heart,  to what may cause His  heart to break.  He has really spoken to me about my actions, or maybe better yet my reactions to certain situations that I  face each day. Here is a situation that happened this week that really got me to thinking about how the things that I do sometimes must really break His  heart .

This has been a really crazy week at work, with a lot of changes going on. I made an error on some  important paper work that had to be submitted to my corporate office before I went home yesterday. I possible avenue to get this corrected, but this was one of those situations where when you push the submit button there is no turning back.

I was really upset with myself.  I came home complaining about the whole situation. Blaming everyone else as to why I did this wrong. I was blaming the corporate office saying  “they don’t realize what all we have going on in the stores.”  Then it was the district managers fault. The list went on and on as to whom was to blame. This situation pretty much ruined my entire day. I was fretting over whom I would have to call to get this corrected. What was my explanation going to be as to why I did this wrong ? Really, when you get right down to it,  the big question was


So, bedtime comes and as I am crawling in to bed,  I whisper  “sweet  Jesus  calm my soul and give me some goooood sleep.”  AND THAT HE DID— until about 1:30 a.m. I began to toss and turn. I adjusted my pillow and looked at the clock. Then all of the things about that situation at work started flowing through my mind. After about an hour of tossing and turning, and counting sheep, I was like, okay God what’s going on here?

When I allowed myself to get really quite, it was if  He was saying  to me  ” Sarah why can’t  you take accountability for your actions today?  You took a short cut and didn”t read the instructions. Why do you want to blame someone else?”  He spoke to me,” Sarah this is  SIN .”

I was like  “LORD , surely you can’t be serious here . You woke me up just to tell me  this?”   But,  He was serious !!!  I took the  time to tell Him that I was truly sorry and confessed my sin to Him concerning this situation.  Promising to take full  responsibility for my actions.  There was also a lot of  sinful PRIDE going on here that I had to confess to Him!!

The next thing  I know  it is morning and the alarm clock is  ringing.  I awoke with such a calm and gentle feeling in my soul.  So refreshed !!!!

Today this situation has made me really think about the little  SINS  (no such thing) that I commit (that I don’t always want to admit are sins) that  must really break  His  heart.  So many times, I am afraid that we go through our lives with unconfessed sin because we have let so much of the world into our lives we have grown cold to recognize our sin.

I am so thankful that  I  have a heavenly father who loves me  and forgives me,  if  I am faithful to confess my sins to Him with  a broken  and contrite  heart.

As I leave you today,  please mediate on these  few verses and allow God to search your  heart  about any unconfessed  sin you may be carrying in your  heart.  Also,  listen to the song that I have provided and savor in His wonderful  love  that he has for each of us.

Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.


What Leads To a Broken Heart ?

Have you ever just woke up one morning and your heart is really hurting ?

You begin to question the intensity of the pain?  Where did this pain come from?

How did I get to this point?  When will this pain ever end?

I am sure that there have been plenty of times in my life that I have suffered from

what one would call a  BROKEN HEART.


Today I  would like to share a particular time in my life when I experienced

a broken heart and how I was able to experience true healing.


Over the years my dear dad suffered from a lot of health problems, when he was 54 years

old he suffered a stroke. The doctors didn’t give him or his family much hope.

But you see, God had a different plan!  He performed a miracle in my dad’s life.

Our family was blessed with his presence in our lives for 26 more years .

You would have to know my dad to fully understand, but He was the rock of our family.

He was that person who looked for the good in everyone. He was the person that you

knew was always praying for you, even when you didn’t ask.  He loved his family,

but  most of all he loved his LORD and Savior.


Over three years ago my mother and I took my dad to the doctor. He wanted to place

my dad in the hospital and do test.  The results of the test were not good.  He needed heart

surgery. But due to his other health problems  his doctor opted to not do the surgery.

My dad was sent home and told that he had about three months to live.


Enters  my really BROKEN HEART.

I would lay in bed at night and cry myself to sleep. I was not ready to give my dad up.

I remember telling my husband and a friend of mine that my heart was hurting so bad.

I said, “this must be how it feels to have a  BROKEN HEART.”


But once again the doctors were wrong. The LORD  allowed my dad to be with his family

three more years.

The healing of my HEART  begins…………

I  feel that the  extra time that God allowed me to spend with my dad was the beginning

 process of  the LORD  healing  my  HEART.  Don’t get me wrong, there were many difficult

days for my dad and my family during this time.  But this was also a time where I was able

to make a lot of  precious memories with my dad.  My dad was such a sweet and gentle spirit.

He was such a good patient who remained faithful through all of his suffering . 


My dad went home to be with his LORD and Savior on March 16 ,2010.  During this

time I asked the LORD to grant me peace and strength.  He done so much more.

 During this very painful process he began to heal my HEART. 

I miss my dad very much and there are many tearful days.  But when I think of

my dad I have such a sweet feeling in my  HEART.

He has received his reward.  He is setting at the feet of  Jesus.